Existential Bliss

Just kidding, but class didn't completely suck today and I'm really happy that I'm friends with Conor now. He's pretty fun to be around and he doesn't make me feel like he thinks I'm dumb. I like it. What I don't like is having to get up at 6 am...I will probably moan about this in every blog I post on a Monday or Wednesday. BUT, I'm excited about the mocktail event...so very excited! I also want dessert of some type now. I wish we had strawberries...that would be awesome.

I've decided that I'm going to take a break from the Abbey for at least this semester. I can only do so much and while I believe that what the Abbey is about is very important and potentially world changing, I need to think of me right now and where my life is headed and where I actually want it to be heading and I need a job and I need to focus on school and rushing Kappa Sigma Delta. All those things are incredibly important to me right now and I'm making a conscious decision to go after those specific things for the first time in my life. I think it shows that I'm growing and learning and getting better.

I watched Sunshine Cleaning the other day and it was a reallllllly good movie. I would recommend it to anyone reading this and even to others who aren't...if you can feel the vibe I'm sending your way then rent it and watch it and love it. :) It was funny and sad and maddening and awesome and beautiful and I thought the cast was good and my favorite character is the one-armed guy named Winston. He rocks!

Ceramics was good tonight. I didn't want to go, but I forced myself to and it was good because we learned some things about firing temperatures and glazing temperatures and I made a bowl and a little vase thing. I also put two little sake cups and a little cream pitcher in line to be fired so then hopefully on Wednesday I can glaze them and finally bring something home to show my parents and then on to the Abbey where I can show them.

I'm so tired tonight. I haven't actually done very much today, but I feel like I ran a marathon and swam 4 miles.

I have to schedule a physical for next week so I can get in to see my doctor and so he has an opportunity to see my face up close and personal to see if he'll refer me to a dermatologist so I can get my acne under control. I just want clear skin and then I'm good. Thats all I need. I just need a clean slate and then I'll keep it clear with whatever they tell me to and it'll be great. I think that will be a big confidence booster for me.

I need to read 100 pgs for my Existential Literature class by Wednesday so I'm going to read now before I go to bed.

Peace.